I’ve been walking again. It’s not daily and I’m only walking half a mile. Takes me less than fifteen minutes in the morning. Later in the day when my daycare kids are all happy and fed, I might pop them in the wagon and do the walk again.
This morning after reading my devotions I started to get ready to walk and I felt a bit nauseated. Yesterday when I started to get ready to clean my house I felt so lightheaded that not even sitting made it subside; I had to curl up and close my eyes to make it go away. I lost more than two hours of my day fighting the lightheadedness. Thursday night, I had a nasty stomach bug that kept me on the couch all day Friday with fever and achiness.
So this morning as I got ready to walk I started to feel frustrated. Then I used what I’d been reading about (The Belt of Truth) and I looked at the truth.
The truth was that there wasn’t anything in my stomach to make me nauseous except a little bit of water. The feeling likely came from me starting to get hungry and it wasn’t anything I needed to skip a walk for.
It was then that I saw the shadow. I know the groundhog didn’t this morning but I sure did. Fortunately, the shadow I saw can’t hold a candle to the God I serve. The shadow I saw was satan, trying to take me from the path that God has set before me, one where I invest in relationship, invest in my health, and invest in God. Satan doesn’t like this new kick I’m on where relationship, my health, and my God are my priorities. Because I’m doing what God wants.
I saw the shadow. When I measured it against the truth, against the light, I realized that this shadow is tiny, scrawny, and kind of rodent-like, similar to that annoying groundhog. And I decided to walk. I pulled on my coat and headed out the door to see what God had for me in the big, bright world. Once I stepped outside the cold air relieved that nauseous feeling almost keeping me home and I found messages from God as my senses came alive.
I saw my new neighbors, just moved in over the last week, said good morning, and made a mental note to bring them some baking.
I smelled someone’s wood fire and remembered to work on planning that camping trip in early September.
I heard vehicles being started, doors opening and closing, children walking to school, people saying farewell for the day.
As I walked, I was able to observe the daily ritual of the world waking up. I turned the third corner on my walk and saw light…the sun wasn’t up just yet but between the top of the mountains in the east and the clouds above I could see the light from the sun, waking up and starting a new day.
I walked past the house of the lady who sits on her front porch, smokes, and greets my daughter and I joyfully anytime we walk past and missed seeing her this morning.
I walked past the house of the man who has caused so many problems for our family in the six years we’ve lived here and wondered just how I can reach out to him.
Finally, I turned into my long driveway and I noticed that the path that was much darker on the way out was much brighter on the way back in.
I saw the shadow. I exposed him to the Light and he fled. Instead I opened myself up to what God had for me and I found a world waiting just outside my front door.